Hunger

Have you ever felt hungry for something but you just can't put your finger on what it is exactly? Maybe I'm the only one. But right now I don't really feel hungry, I just want something that I can't pinpoint. And I don't really want to eat until I figure out what I want - because that would just be a waste of space in my stomach. What if I can't figure it out for a week? That would be unfortunate. Maybe I will never figure it out, but just forget - then I can eat normally. I can say this: I'm tired of macaroni and cheese. After 4 months I'm finally tired of it.

I feel warn out physically, mentally, and spiritually. Just drained - and I don't know how to re-charge. I started to feel that way last week, but I got a re-charge in on Saturday. Spent some time with some really great people. The best part was "working" in the backyard. I say working in quotes - because it was playing, not working - but somewhere in there was a purpose. The purpose for one was to make something incredible, the purpose for me was to be a part of something incredible. And of course I got to watch the best movie ever Moulin Rouge - charging accomplished. But ever since the clock struck 12:01 on 2007 it has been pretty much down hill from there, and I don't know how to stop it.

Could the two trains of thought be related? Are they on the same track headed toward one another making for a messy collision?