The Story

I realised that I called my last entry "change", and I also called an entry in November 2005 "change" as well. After awhile they all seem to run together don't they? It is a calendar day when I don't come here and throw up my life all over you and walk away. You only hear the crap, rarely do I come with some happy news.

I have recently been working on some short stories. Well OK, I only have one actually written, another half written (that I'm not sure I will finish, because it makes me just sit and cry) and a third one in my head (that I should just write already or I won't feel any peace). The problem with the unwritten one is that I'm not sure how to be clear. To say what I want to say and still get my point across. Or not have any misunderstandings . . . although I guess every piece of art is open for interpretation. I have a second story in my head that should come out, but quite honestly I don't know if I will ever write it. It would probably be the easiest one of the "unwrittens" in my head, but that would take all the angst out of trying to be a writer - NOW WOULDN'T IT? I'm not sure if these stories will ever actually see that light of day, but I guess that isn't really the point of writing. I still need to finish my story I was writing with another person. The problem is, I think neither one of us really know how to end it. I should just finish it off and get it to press - maybe in time for her birthday. Hey NAD, what do you think of that idea. Lets talk about it.

I have been anxiously awaiting my dad's latest painting. I saw it in the middle stage and was totally captured by it. I thought that he should have just stopped where he was. Leave it unfinished. But as things go in this world - "everything seen is supported by things that are not seen," and that would ruin the mantra if he had left it half done. What is seen would be the unseen and that just isn't done. I love his art - not just because it is done by my dad (but I don't think that hurts), but because it is something that hasn't really been done before . . . or maybe it has, but with my limited knowledge I just don't know it has.

Anyway, change is still in the air - and I don't think I am the only one totally put off by it all. And that is my story, and I'm sticking to it.