Day 6

For those of you keeping track - I'm on day 6 of my involuntary vacation. I can honestly say I haven't done anything productive. My resume sits un-printed, and my portfolios sit on the corner of my desk collecting dust. I don't have any one to send them to. Quite honestly I'm not even sure why I printed those portfolios. They are outdated, and pertain to a life of working as a landscape architect. What if I don't want to do that anymore? I feel like I should make a move to find another job - I am just finding it hard when I am dealing with the loss of this one. How am I going to make it through the day without seeing and talking to my friends that still work there. Yes, there is email, and the occasional trips to their homes to swing on their swings, or to have dinner, or to have conversations about nothing - but the everyday ins and outs are gone. Then there is the thought that there is a very real possibility that I find a job that isn't here in St. Louis. That would mean, not only saying goodbye to those from work, but the entire community that has been growing around me for the past 3 years. That means no random swinging or random pop ins. I don't know if I can take that much change in a week, two weeks, month even.

Well enough of me sitting around. I guess I should go do something productive, like cleaning my room, or starting some laundry. I wonder how many times I can clean something before it is absolutely clean?