blogger play

i have been spending the last few minutes watching blogger play - http://play.blogger.com/. i sometimes wonder if that is wrong. blogger play is a program that was written to show pictures that are being uploaded to blogger at the time. sometimes you can see that people are putting up a series of pictures for one entry. it is fun to watch what people are picturing. for some reason the day time has many foreign language blogs (you can click on the picture and read the blog with the picture). i don't know if it is because they are evening bloggers and that is now! anyway, it is fun to watch for a bit, sometimes there are some really cool pictures and you get to see places you would never get a chance to go.

tomorrow is the official start of week 3 of my involuntary vacation. i have actually grown tired of my vacation - i think because i haven't gone anywhere fun. mostly i hang around the house napping, reading, and watching a movie. i have applied for a few jobs, but so far nothing is really panning out. i was dragging my feet on really hitting the job search hard until i found out about one job in particular. i have wanted to work at this place for about 5 years, and now i have the opportunity. it is called the bridge - www.thebridgejoplin.com. i had a meeting with the head of it all yesterday - so it was do or die - and i guess the outcome was in the middle. i think i have a shot there if i can wait about 6 months. my money is going a long way these days, but not that far. so i either have to get a real job, or work at a minor job until the one i want becomes available. i think part of the problem is i don't know what i want to do for them. i don't really care if i sweep floors and clean bathrooms as long as i get to be there working there, the whole place just puts out this feeling that i can't describe. so when asked, what do you see doing here - i answer just being here is enough. i know that it isn't all roses and sunshine, probably most of it is the thorns and sun burn - but i honestly don't care. it is hard to tell someone that when they are in the middle of the 3rd degree burns applying aloe with band aids on their bleeding fingers. they know better than i do about it, so who am i to argue it. i guess i was most disappointed because in all of what has happened in the last 2 weeks i have seen a bigger picture, a bigger plan that i am a part of. when asking god to shut the doors he didn't want me to go through and open the one he did - i didn't expect to get shoved through one only to have it slammed and dead bolted behind me by getting fired (or being forced to quit). so i figured with something that big happening there had to be something big down the hall of doors i have available to me now. come to find out the door i want is locked with one of those chains, so i can open it a bit and see inside but i can't touch anything there. so i'm really left to wonder - where the hell is this other door i'm suppose to find.

did have a good lunch with a friend of mine. i don't know how he does it, but he always makes me feel a little bit better.