Mute Math - Typical

Um . . . two video posts in one day - can't be good . . . but this one is.

HEY YA ACOUSTIC

Video quality is poor . . . but I think I might like this version better.

Profound

I feel like I should come here and write - and possibly say something profound. I've got nothing. I spend my days working. While I'm working I think about movie quotes. Current quotes of choice include most (if not all) of the exchanges between Dustin Hoffman and Will Ferrell in Stranger Than Fiction. "Aren't you relieved to know you are not a Gollum?" Add a smattering of "Do anarchists meet?" and "I don't need a patch Penny, I smoke cigarettes." and you have yourself one hell of a day. I like working my job. And I'm not saying that because I had a bad day today and people worry that I might up and quit without warning. I am saying it because I do. In general I like it. I'm doing what I went to school for. Can you say the same thing for yourself? No, you can not. But things always come around for me, and I ask myself the same question - "Isn't there more?" And the answer is - yes, but you just aren't there yet.

Are you the king of anything?
King of anything?
Like king of the lanes at the local bowling alley?
King of the lanes?
King of the lanes? King of the trolls?
King of the trolls?

Gary Jules- Mad World

Don't be alarmed when you see the guy dressed up like a rabbit - it's all part of something much bigger not shown here. Anyway, I had forgotten about this song. I use to listen to it over and over again. And just when I thought I couldn't listen anymore, I would listen again. I heard the song on the radio today and realized I hadn't listened to it for at least a year . . . that is a good sign.

99%

99% of the time it is the best thing in the world to work with all men. The other 1% really sucks.

The Story

I realised that I called my last entry "change", and I also called an entry in November 2005 "change" as well. After awhile they all seem to run together don't they? It is a calendar day when I don't come here and throw up my life all over you and walk away. You only hear the crap, rarely do I come with some happy news.

I have recently been working on some short stories. Well OK, I only have one actually written, another half written (that I'm not sure I will finish, because it makes me just sit and cry) and a third one in my head (that I should just write already or I won't feel any peace). The problem with the unwritten one is that I'm not sure how to be clear. To say what I want to say and still get my point across. Or not have any misunderstandings . . . although I guess every piece of art is open for interpretation. I have a second story in my head that should come out, but quite honestly I don't know if I will ever write it. It would probably be the easiest one of the "unwrittens" in my head, but that would take all the angst out of trying to be a writer - NOW WOULDN'T IT? I'm not sure if these stories will ever actually see that light of day, but I guess that isn't really the point of writing. I still need to finish my story I was writing with another person. The problem is, I think neither one of us really know how to end it. I should just finish it off and get it to press - maybe in time for her birthday. Hey NAD, what do you think of that idea. Lets talk about it.

I have been anxiously awaiting my dad's latest painting. I saw it in the middle stage and was totally captured by it. I thought that he should have just stopped where he was. Leave it unfinished. But as things go in this world - "everything seen is supported by things that are not seen," and that would ruin the mantra if he had left it half done. What is seen would be the unseen and that just isn't done. I love his art - not just because it is done by my dad (but I don't think that hurts), but because it is something that hasn't really been done before . . . or maybe it has, but with my limited knowledge I just don't know it has.

Anyway, change is still in the air - and I don't think I am the only one totally put off by it all. And that is my story, and I'm sticking to it.

Change

I have a lot of change all happening at once . . . and I really hate it. While all these changes have the potential to be good things, I really just want things to stay how they are. There are down sides to every change I am going through, the problem is knowing if the upsides outweigh the down sides. So far they don't. So far the down sides are staring me right in the face every day. Instead of dealing with the down sides and turning them into positives . . . or leaving them behind all together - I am hiding. Hiding in a world I left behind years ago, that took me years to get out of, and has the ability to swallow me up hole and not give me up very easily.