Thinker and the Thought

My dad painted a picture called: Thinker and the Thought. It doesn't really have anything to do with what I am doing here - but it kind of does. Anyway, I think I'm done here for awhile. I was doing this whole 365 days thing because I guess I wanted to prove something to myself, or to you, or to someone. All I have found is that occasionally I have something to say, and it comes out right, and I get my point across. But on those other days I'm just writing because I have to and not because I want to. I'm not saying I am done with the blog all together - I just think I have reached the point of wondering if it really matters if I finish or not.

Morgan

off days

another day where what i say comes out wrong and misconstrued.

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,

I'm really tired of coming to you every day.

Earthquake

Dear Earthquake,

Thanks! That was the most fun I have had in a long time! It was amazing!

Weather

Dear Weather Man,

I know I need to ride, but some rain tomorrow would be nice - my week has been full.

OTH

Dear OTH,

I am disappointed - but I'm not sure why.

Indians

Dear Cleveland Indians,

What is happening? Are you all alright? I have been watching your stats (because I can't get the games on TV much) and you keep falling down into a pit of loss. The Royals are kicking hiny and taking names, and you all act like they use to. Where is the spirit you had last year?

Still A Fan,
Katie Morgan

Just Words

Dear Words,

I don't really know how to use you right now. Quite honestly I don't think there are many of you in my head.

Until We Meet Again,
Katie Morgan

Markers

Dear Markers,

It has been so long, I really miss you. I can never get you back, you belong to someone else - but I wish you belonged to me. I heard that your new owner doesn't even use you to your potential. I am afraid that is pretty typical of most of the people there. I say most, because there are at least 2 guys there that get you, and understand all of your capabilities, but those who have access to you and could really use you are not going to. I have been thinking about you a lot lately. Maybe it is because on my last few art things I have had to use pens and colored pencils, sometimes even crayons. This makes my heart sad. While there is great value in colored pencils, I really find my joy with you.

I hope you find a good home . . . I will miss you. I think I am going to go find some of your friends and bring them to my house. Would that be OK? I am not abandoning you, but I do need to move on. I am sorry.

Love Always,
Kate

Grilfriends

Dear Girlfriends of Professional BMX Bikers,

Just because your boyfriend is a professional BMX rider doesn't mean you get any of the same privileges offered to them. No you may not go into the "Bikers Only" areas, you are not competing in this competition, and you are not a biker. While you put up with a lot due to the fact you are dating someone that spends 200 days a year on the road, and can't walk without a limp, you do not qualify to go into the green rooms or watch from the ramps.

Sorry,
Katie Morgan
(The one you are pissed at when I won't let you in without an arm band)

Chuck

Dear Chuck,

We just met tonight and had the opportunity to work together at the desk. I wish you the best of luck tomorrow on your ride and hope you make it to the finals. Grab that home court advantage and hold on to it!

Katie

You too

Dear (left blank)

I hope you can read this card, because I sure can't, I'm hoping it is for confirmation. All the confirmation cards were so cheesy, and I just couldn't handle giving you something like that. So instead you have to translate. I figured since you are a UN translator in Spanish now that it shouldn't be a problem for you.

Anyway, congratulations on your confirmation. Is that what you say? I'm not sure. I do suspect it was a lot of work, so way to go on sticking it out. I remember when I went through it all I had to do a lot of memorization. Does it sound like I am rambling? I think I am.

So I guess I will let you go now, and ramble no more. I am proud of you for taking this step - I know God has some great plans in store for you. Life may be really hard sometimes, but somehow He always seems to pull people through and show them something totally awesome on the other side.

Morgan!

Dear God

Dear God,



My assumption would be that many people thought I already emailed you last week. That is not really true. I know that you know that . . . but come on, who are we kidding.



Anyway, the real reason I am writing is to ask you a very important question. Why did you make me like this? I mean, was I suppose to be like this, or did this happen because of my life circumstances? Or is that why I had my life circumstances? Let's be honest (there isn't any point to not be honest with you - right?) I'm cool, people like to be around me, but there feels like there is something inside of me that doesn't belong. And I don't think it is there because of you, or because you put it in there - but you kind of did (does that make that whole last sentence cancel itself out?). Will I eventually get rid of it? I do know if I do get rid of it - while it will be one of the greatest things to happen to me, it will probably be the most painful thing I ever experience. To get rid of something so entwined into my soul as this is, it will be a painful procedure to get rid of. All I know is, I don't like whatever it is, but there is comfort in it because it is the only thing I know.



Either way, I'm not looking forward to it, but I know that it needs to happen. So what is next for us?



Respectfully,

Kate

Do you have worms?

Dear DJ Earworm,



I discovered your site yesterday quite by accident, I'm still there. You are incredible. I don't think what you are doing is necessarily new - but I'm loving it. I have downloaded all of your songs and I am now sharing them with everyone I know. What a creative way to listen to music and then make your own. I don't think I have heard one yet that I didn't like . . . I'm still listening to see if I can find one so I can find some fault in what you do.

Anyway, thanks for your creativity - I'm loving it.

Your Biggest Fan,
Katie From The Block

Cause For Alarm

Dear Alarm Clock,

I am not your biggest fan. While I am on the topics of fans - do you have any? You rudely wake people up from deep sleep or great dreams. Sometimes you go off at the most inopportune times. Most times you wake me up during the best dreams. You NEVER wake me up from a nightmare. Why is that. I have nightmares and you sit idly by and wait for me to have a good dream. A dream where I am having the time of my life, or I am about to find the answer to some question like who I am going to marry, what the meaning of life is, who killed the electric car, or where Jimmy Hoffa is buried.

Anyway, I know that I have to get up, but why right now. I would much rather get up whenever I wake up, and then go to work when I get there. I guess that isn't realistic, but why isn't it? I know it isn't your fault - you are just a tool of "The Man." If you were Strawberry, I might be able to forgive.

Sleepily,
Katie Morgan

Blank

Dear (group of people) ,

I don't know if I have ever told you this - but I really like spending time with you. I sometimes wonder if we really have anything in common, if I really have anything to offer you. I may never know if you gain anything from our time together. But I want you to know that it means the world to me when you want to spend time with me. Somehow it makes my life make sense. I hope that someday you might understand what an impact you have on me in my life.

Sincerely,
Morgan

GW

Dear Gene Wilder,

I'm in love with you. There are no two ways about it. You are a comic genius - and I wish I could be half as funny as you are.

Yours Sincerely,
Katie Morgan

Snack Machine Guy

Dear Snack Machine Guy,

In an effort to retrieve the Peanut Butter Cups that were caught in the spindle, I obtained two items that were not mine. Your machine will be $1 short. ALTHOUGH, that was the second item we had tried to shake free, so maybe you are up on money due to people not taking the time to shake the machine.

Honestly, I am not that sorry, because I got a Snickers bar for free, and it made two children laugh that really needed one. BTW the microwave popcorn is awesome, but you put in packets with Spanish instructions on them instead of English. Luckily I had someone there who was almost fluent in Spanish, or the popcorn would have been a waste.

If you want your dollar, you are going to have to come find me.

Thanks,
Katie Morgan

Dear . . .

Dear (thing to remain nameless to protect the innocent) ,

Why are you such a jerk? I'm serious. I know how I am, I know that I call people jerks and sometimes I don't mean it - hell, I even call myself a jerk sometimes. But this is over the line, really over the line. You don't even care about people one bit. You see people suffering, and instead of helping them you just watch, then you poke them, punch them, and watch them writhe in the extra pain you are causing.

Lay off. Just lay off. I do have to say this, you are an equal opportunity a-hole. You pester everyone the same way and don't discriminate on age, race, or gender - so way to be on that.

I hope some day you get yours.

With Regrets,
Katie Morgan

Royals

Dear Kansas City Royals,

I was over on the MLB Standings site today looking at how my beloved Indians were fairing so far. I was shocked to see you at the top of the standings, winning your first two games. How exciting for you all! Are you excited? Not only have you won your first two games, but you beat Detroit, they are usually pretty high in the rankings. I hope that you continue to do well, you deserve it after so long.

You know, I usually do root for the underdog. That is why I am an Indians fan. For so long they were low in the standings, but now that they did so well last year, I am beginning to wonder who I really should root for this year. Do not get too excited yet, I will still cheer for them, but you are inching up in the rankings for me to consider as second favorite. I am closer to Kansas City than I am to Cleveland, so it would be nice to go to a game every now and again (especially when you play Cleveland).

Anyway, I wish you all the luck you can handle. Let me know how tomorrow's game goes with Detroit.

Sincerely,
Katie Morgan
Devoted Indians Fan Since 1984

Postcards From The Edge

Dear Gentle Reader,

As you have probably deduced by now, I am writing here everyday of 2008. It hasn't always been fun for me, and I know it hasn't always been fun for you either. The powers that be in the Blog 365 world have themes each month that people can use to kick start, re-start, or re-vamp a blog. I have never used these because . . . well I don't really know why. I guess, mostly, it is because I hate to conform. I don't want to conform to their themes. You may say, "But Katie, isn't the fact that you are blogging 365 days a year a bit conformist to the idea of Blog 365?" And to that I would answer, "No, because there were only about 1,000 people on the list when I signed up. So not signing up would have been going with the flow." See my logic? I astound myself. Anyway, I got the theme for April last week. And the more I thought about it the more I realized that this month's theme is something I would like to tackle.

Without further ado, I give you April's Theme: Letters. Yes, you heard it correctly, letters. I am going to write a letter every day for the month of April. I may just write it here, I may actually send it, I may write no one in particular (like today), or I may even write you. Doesn't the thought of me writing you a letter just fill you with anticipation. I know some of you are thinking right now, "Oh, I hope she picks me this month." And indeed, I may. I may change some names to protect the innocent . . . and the guilty.

So I hope you like this month. I do not promise it will be more interesting than any other month. I do not promise to even follow through with this for all 30 days.

Sincerely,

Morgan