Conversational

i haven't been feeling very conversational today. who am i kidding, i haven't felt very conversational since i got back into town on monday. you didn't even know i was going out of town - you say? well that is because i didn't tell you. i went on a vacation. a real vacation. i haven't had a real vacation since i went to alaska about 2 and a half years ago. this time i went somewhere warm - cancun. the reasons i haven't written about cancun are many so i will break it down to pre-trip, trip, and post-trip:

why i didn't write pre-trip:
a. i really couldn't believe i was actually going
2. i was looking forward to a fun time, but i feared that by admitting i was looking forward to a fun time might cause the fun time to not come to pass (strange, i know)
III. i just didn't because i haven't really written much lately

why i didn't write due to the trip:
1. friday i felt like the girl from the caribbean commercials. you know the one - where the parents take the teenager on this cruise to find the "elusive smile". well i didn't all of friday. i felt like such a jerk. here i was in a beautiful location, with some great friends, and i was pissed.
II. saturday and sunday were so great, i don't know how to sum them up. pictures don't do them justice, words can't do them justice, i can't do them justice.

why i didn't write post-trip:
in a word . . . because i was depressed. depressed because i had to come back to the 12 degree weather, and the mundane everyday life, and the quiet of the night with me and my dog.

maybe there is more to write in that post-trip paragraph, but i'm stopping there for now. not really conversational - remember?