Last Time

When you are doing something mundane you never stop to think - "Is this the last time I will ever do this?" And then you wake up later and realize you will never do ________ (fill in the blank) again. Like the last time you kissed you ex-boyfriend or girlfriend, did you really know or think it would be the last time. The last time you ever backed out of that driveway or drove down that road because you moved. The last time you ever stood in that kitchen, or that office, or saw those people. Maybe you don't think about that because it is depressing, or fatalistic, or pessimistic. I don't really think about it at the time, but sometimes I do later. It comes up in a conversation, or a thought, or though my many hours of introspection.