I Want

I just want to get in bed and go to sleep, wake up and have it be Monday again so I can start it over. So I won't spill my life all over the office and my house and have no clue how to put it back together. So I won't be so confused and messed up that I can't work or carry on a coherent conversation. So I can say that I did this day right. How could so many good weeks culminate into this?